For the Moments I Feel Faint: Reflections on Fear & Showing Up

In this mini E-Book, I take the miracle of Jesus feeding the 5,000 as a lens with which to look at my first 2 years overseas in my desert home. I recount how God took what I had to give (though it didn’t feel like much), and blessed it. Then, how I was broken. I learned, then, about what we can give once we’re broken.

Fear was a familiar friend, those years. The temptation for self preservation was strong. The desire to hunker down and stay safe was big. But I moved back overseas. I kept showing up. And I believe if we, people of faith, are willing to be taken, blessed, broken and given, even in our fears, that there is enough for us all to eat and be satisfied.

These are words for the moments I felt faint. The days I didn’t want to show up. For the moments I wanted to cry and for the ones I actually did. For the days where anxiety and fear threatened to take over. For the days my strength was gone and for every moment that God never failed me.

These are words for you, too. For the moments you feel faint. For the days that showing up feels hard or impossible. For the days that the fear feels paralyzing, for the days in our breaking that the ache is physical. May these words help you have the courage to keep showing up. May we find the value in brokenness, and may we never let fear keep us from giving, and from seeing to it that all are fed and satisfied.

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