I’ve met with and talked with a lot of people these last few months about my first 2 years overseas. Even from professionals and people who have been in this line of work for a really long time have all said that I had a really tough time of things. More set-backs than most people experience. They say it is a powerful sense of call that is the biggest factor in workers being able to remain resilient in the face of difficulties and traumas working overseas. I didn’t choose to minister and work overseas because I thought it would be fun and exciting (though it is!) but because I have to help the hurts I have seen.
Recently I go the opportunity to see a number of my friends from my home in the sand. It was somehow very encouraging to catch up with those friends. To know I am not alone in struggling in dealing with what we’ve been through and re-adjusting to the States and the difficulty in making decisions. Laughing with people going through the same kind of crazy I am was refreshing. A few of us were talking and sharing how we were still feeling broken in our losses and the darkness going on in the home we all left un-willingly. And that this life is hard on the heart. But a friend of mine smiled and said, “But we wouldn’t want it any other way.” We all smiled, nodded, and agreed. It is hard and exciting and confusing and exhilarating living in faith like this. And I wouldn’t want it any other way.
I will follow you”
In that same song he also sings,
“If this life I lose, I will follow you”
If this safe life,
If this easy life,
If this life with community and support and loved ones,
If this self-pleasing life,
If this chocolate-eating, book-buying, savings-building, art-making, cute clothes-wearing life I lose…
Was reading an old book recently called “Daddy Long Legs” by Jean Webster. There was one part that made me smile a little, “Although my feelings are still hurt, for it is very humiliating to be picked up and moved about my an arbitrary, peremptory, unreasonable, invisible Providence, still, when a man has been as kind and generous and thoughtful as you have heretofore been towards me, I suppose he has a right to be an arbitrary, peremptory, unreasonable, invisible, Providence if he so chooses, and so—I’ll forgive you and be cheerful again.”